State of Happiness.

The first day of school has always been some sort of "super" day for me. You get to wear new clothes, bring your new stationary, look your best and really get into the organization of it all. I find myself in a beautiful state of mind right now. I'm back with the group of people that make me the happiest, at a campus that's just right for me and so far, enjoying the hell out of my classes.

I spent my labour day weekend back home in Ottawa, where I was sad to find out that it's not where my happiness is anymore. I honnestly just wanted to relax and spend time with my family, and I did... but part of me wanted to see everyone else too- so I went to a great party but I just had alot of trouble finding my place. People whom I've known since elementary school were there, and I hardly recognized them. I'm the kind of person who will keep in touch with anything I've ever spoken too. It was very hard to see some of them and have nothing whatsoever in common anymore. I think the problem with me is that I want to be friends with everyone... I know I'm that kind of person that anyone can get along with, yet sometimes it's hard to keep up the image. I detest those "How you been?" questions from people where they shouldn't even need to be asked. I like it when things are normal and not superficial. I like it when I can talk to my supposed friends without updating them on what's new. Does that sound odd? I mean it should just come out. Some of those people I'd rather not keep in touch with... but when you've known them for over 10 years, it shouldn't feel weird and awkward.

So I left the party early and enjoyed a cup of tea with people who warm my heart.

I'm back in Toronto where my heart belongs. Now if only I could find the prince to my ballerina- I'd be set.