bumper sticker.

I just got back from the testicle convention. I had a ball.

the last day of november.

So I’m sorting out laundry at the local mat when Holding Back the Years by Simply Red comes on through my earphones. I’m thinking whites, blacks and colors when all of a sudden, I get a little groovy. My hips and heals start to kick in tune, while the ever-so-sexy 80’s slow riff plays in the background. I start thinking, am I holding back the years? I’ve wasted all my tears, wasted all those years! Nothing had the chance to be good!

And then I come up with the brilliant conclusion that you know a boy really likes you when you’ve washed your sheets and he’s still the one who dirties them the next.

I now find myself “dating” the neighbor. Now at first, I thought to myself: "What?! This has happened?! This is a wicked arrangement! I’m busy and dating other boys! This is perfect! And somehow, after seeing him three times in under a week, I’m thinking: "Oh no! This is bad! I have a few days off! I’m horny! I’m bored! AND he lives downstairs! This is crazy! I can’t do this!”

I turned into this awful girl.

Then.
I smoked some weed.

Why is it that life seems all that more rational when you’re high?

I went for a walk- which really meant “I did my laundry.” Things cleared up. I passed by his house and shouted: “Because I didn’t love you!” with my inside voices to myself. I then switched over to a more upbeat song and skipped my way over to soapy suds. The name I just made up for the laundromat.

“Where do you go to do your laundry?”
“Soapy suds!"

Wow. Now I’m thinking impromptu dance party at our place tonight.

I want to call -him- and talk to -him- as a friend would. But I know i’ve got to keep my cool, after all that’s what has kept this relationship going.
SPACE! Weird: “Space Oddity” by Bowie just started to play...

I also just spaced out there for a minute because just for laughs gags was playing on the television at the mat. One of my favorite shows of all time.

It's started to really snow outside. It's so beautiful and it just makes me want to cuddle up to someone.



Oh-oh.

I think I fell in love again.

i quit, i quit, i quit!

don't give me that sheepish grin.
don't shake my hand.

i left you with a goldmine.
now leave me with mine.

why did i write you a thank you card?

¡ɯǝod uʍop ǝpısdn ǝɥʇ

¿ǝɯıɹɔ ɐ ʇɐɥʇ sı
'ʇ,uop ı ɟı
.ǝɯʎɥɹ 'ǝɯʎɥɹ 'ǝɯʎɥɹ

who was that?

you shrieked that kid-like-high-pitched-hello

i thought i heard something.

you said it under your breath.

i was flagged to walk ahead
and my eyes flinched.

i play this part
'cause you broke a precious thing of mine

it's so hard to hate you!