he just couldn't stay away.

the perfect remedy is ahead
disconnecting...
we'll both be out of sight
ironic...
i'm not trying to fight.

empty house, hands clean.
body + soul = free.
i was dancing, i think.
& you creeped in,
at that moment-
took control of me.

i almost wrote,
i almost spoke,
tears had me choke.

i'm scared
i'm alone.
i'm a child.

vulnerable here,
powerful there.
have you heard the news?

i curse technology
for it's evil deeds
this cat is killed
she meows for you.

the vacancy sign
flickers in my heart-
no man will ever
put out the fire
these eyes
burn for you.

i'm not pleading.
i'm not even trying to write.
i'm suffering.
sinking.

craving your arms tonight.

why is it?

that you seem to understand life so much more in the restless hours of the night?

that you go through a series of bipolar emotions and then look back on them only to laugh?

that you realize things you couldn't quite grasp in the moment but then have them heal with time?


we constantly use this word... time.

we try to focus on where we'll be,
we're confused about what the fuck is going on.
we consume ourselves and lose some of it.
i have no idea what time it is.

i'm not ready to talk to him.
that. will take a very long time.
the finger stays... because i'm bitter.
this is not who i am,
but i am healing.

i get it. i truly get it.
these are my years to come.
time spent with myself.

fuck

you.

game on.

days seem like weeks
race you to the finish line.

i lay in bed tonight
pretending my hand is yours
as it tickles me right
your face is madly blurred.
i dream you sitting,
drinks in hand
up at the bar,
or listening to the band.
relish the glory, well deserved
good show tonight!
he was great!
they've said, i heard.

that straw played games
with your lips.
as i slyly made it sway with
my movement of hips
your fingers held glass so tight
as flashes of us
returned to sight.
another drink please?
i cast one more until he calls.
he won't call
he won't cave.
we both know
our love was a game
two fools couldn't play.

running on hope and despair-
i'm loosing this game to a careless hare.

and he's terrible at goodbyes.

heart brake.

as you become less and less a man
they follow.

as the days go by and by
i swallow.

this is the only place where
words will surface again

it'll be what i want to write
because i can write
whatever i want to write
i'm selfish like that.

as careless as you are right now,
wherever you are.
i'm catching you in your tracks
i worry like that.

these eyes will haunt you-

remixed.

when the fear sets in,
in the next reprise

think to yourself-

the girl you love
couldn't dry her eyes.

awake.

all this time
i thought i was someone special.

all this time
i thought certain things were
for me alone.

i am a grand fool.
to think such selfish things of you.

i am not nearly what you are to me.
and it kills me inside.

i am more than a just woman
who passes by in your life.

my heart deserves to be kept by a soldier,
not a boy.