security blanket.

it's a sad thing, this blog.

it contains a mixture of memories, inspired by moments that took my breath away.
most of its' contents come from deep within the bottom of my heart
as it is the pillow to my tears, the shoulder to my head.

the pain i have felt, i sit and type to describe.
yet no one really knows, but i.

it was not created as a cry for help
or a boost for my ego.
it is only for certain eyes.
some may stomach,
some are curious-
some may even laugh.

if you've read this far...
i love you.
i've written all of this for you.
i want you back in my life.

but

"i'm not fine, i'm in pain.
it's getting harder and harder everyday."

leaving me out in the cold has built me to hate.