how's your potassium intake?

slow like honey.

by fiona apple.

"you moved like honey in my dream last night
yeah, some old fires were burning-
you came near to me and you endeared to me
but you couldn't quite discern me.

does that scare you? i'll let you run away.
but your heart will not oblige you.
you'll remember me like a melody
yeah, I'll haunt the world inside you.

and my big secret - gonna win you over
slow like honey, heavy with mood.

i'll let you see me, i'll covet your regard
i'll invade your demeanor
and you'll yield to me like a scent in the breeze
and you'll wonder what it is about me.

it's my big secret - keeping you coming
slow like honey, heavy with mood.

though dreams can be deceiving-
like faces are to hearts.
they serve for sweet relieving
when fantasy and reality lie too far apart.

so I stretch myself across, like a bridge-
and I pull you to the edge.
and stand there waiting
trying to attain
the end to satisfy the story.
shall I release you?
must I release you?
as we rise to meet our glory

but my big secret
gonna hover over your life
gonna keep you reaching
when I'm gone like yesterday
when I'm high like heaven
when I'm strong like music
'cause I'm slow like honey, and
heavy with mood.''

fast as you can.

by fiona apple.

"I let the beast in too soon, I don't know how to live without my hand on his throat;
I fight him always & still.
Oh darling, it's so sweet, you think you know how crazy,
how crazy I am.
You say you don't spook easy,
you won't go, but I know and I pray that you will.

Fast as you can, baby run-free yourself of me,
Fast as you can.

I may be soft in your palm but I'll soon grow hungry for a fight,
and I will not let you win.
My pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will disprove your faith in man.
So if you catch me trying to find my way into your heart from under your skin...

Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself.
Fast as you can
Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself.
Fast as you can

Sometimes my mind don't shake and shift but most of the time, it does.
And I get to the place where I'm begging for a lift
or I'll drown in the wonders and the was.
And I'll be your girl, if you say it's a gift
and you give me some more of your drugs.
Yeah, I'll be your pet, if you just tell me it's a gift
cause I'm tired of whys, choking on whys.
Just need a little because, because.

I let the beast in and then;
I even tried forgiving him, but it's too soon
So I'll fight again, again, again, again, again.
And for a little while more,
I'll soar the uneven wind, complain and blame
The sterile land.
But if you're getting any bright ideas, quiet dear
I'm blooming within.

Fast as you can, baby wait watch me, I'll be out
Fast as I can, maybe late but at least about
Fast as you can leave me, let this thing run its route.

Fast as you can
Fast as you can
Fast as you can
Fast as you can."

i don't like this.

of course i'll watch. even if it kills me.

we're on a roll.

the one beauty i always wanted to be, was she.

just when i thought i could never be inspired again-
like gushers,
pop rocks
or fireworks.

i became snow white.

except this time, my dwarfs got upgraded.

wind it up.

M.I.A meets Kelis meets Madonna.
Where's Gwen? I prefer the BNL version.

yodelay, yodelay, yodelay.

think i'm in love.

i recently purchased the new beck album entitled 'the information'. upon hearing the soothing sounds of what was expected, i was highly impressed with the packaging... i'll pay $20 for stickers any day! the added DVD is absolutely brilliant. just have a few glasses of wine + then some and voila. i stood there mezmorized with laughter. best screen saver/party center peice out there! this is the closest thing i could find in relation to what is on the actual DVD. just go out and BUY IT. k-os's 'atlantis hymns for disco' is also worth mentioning.

stranger to stranger.

to my left.
she has a past, a story.
included, chosen-
i am part of her wednesday ritual-
she is mesmorized
by the bags,
the danish,
the tea,
the technology in this trendy cafe.
slowly breaking apart the bites,
she breathes,
she pauses,
she coughs.
there is no rush.
for tomorrow will sneak up slowly.
she is crippled,
accentuated by a red hat,
coat,
and shoes.
tonight is a treat.
she has lived a good life.
she reaks of old lady perfume
but it's comforting.
we exchange smiles.
on goes the lipstick.
red, of course.
she is a legend in my eyes.
a hero, inspiration.
i'm decades younger,
enjoying similar things.
tea,
yogourt,
myself.

i am alone.
and that's okay.

i am living a good life.

booked.

YYZ to YOW to NYC!

BORAT

equals REVOLUTIONARY. i urge you to see this movie.
the bar has been raised again! shock comedy, eat your heart out.
it's all about the jay roach, baby.

despite all my rage.

sometimes, i catch myself lost-
overlooking a maze
with me as the frantic rat,
you as the exit.
i am
confused,
nervous,
disoriented,
devastated, even.

i sleep at odd times,
in odd places.
i'm dehydrated, sick-
food has lost its' power.
there's other rats in here,
but they all stink.

'where am i going?'
'when will this end?'
'how did i get here in the first place?'

i wish i could tell the guys upstairs
i don't want to be a rat.

they challenge me by adding obstacles,
unknown routes and funky medication.
the others come up to me-
inspired and ask:
'where do i go from here?'
i say follow your heart
but i am a liar-
for i have followed my own advice and it has led me back to the start.

it's an addiction-
i've tasted it.
i crave it,
and the high extends my happiness.
i'm altered, in a haze
daydreaming of something so real.

i question whether i'm the rat, or the exit.
it must be the drugs.

each week i push.
i fight.
i dress up with silly hats...
in hopes to finish with a BANG!
if life's like the movies
i'll get there one day
and there will be a banner waiting.
but until then,
i'll remember the turns i took,
the bits of clues gathered along the way
and how good it felt to be free with you.

the exits there.
but if it doesn't speak, it doesn't help...

i might as well stay a rat forever.

i don't understand it.
if it would only reach out to me.
this isn't an end. it's a new beginning.

i deserve that exit
i'm adorable.