Feeling it.

Just got back from Yuks... my set went pretty well, it's the usual- man that machine is hilarious! Haha, at least I get it more from the comics, which means alot. It feels better when a fellow comedian tells you you're funny... but I always love the compliments from the crowd- who doesn't? Andrew did a great job headlining tonight too, there's lots of talented people in this program, I just want to fastforward to next year already to see who will return. Some- maybe one third, should take a year off. I was a little rusty tonight, hadn't done a set in three weeks. Next week I'll be @ the Yuk Yuks in Ottawa doing my thing on the amateur night. I have to see Ken while I'm there- I feel like a horrible person because I haven't made the effort yet. I didn't go down to Ottawa for his party- I should have been there... but I'm convincing myself that I have to see him, or else... I will regret it forever. Ken is the kind man who owns the iNSTiTUTiON comedy club in Ottawa where I got my start. He was recently diagnosed with CJD, a rare brain disease that affects the nerves and memory. He could die tomorrow for this is a terminal illness. What do you say to someone you know who is truly going to die? Apart from the obvious thanks and admiration, I can't find words to express how seeing him since this devastating news will be like. Him and I were on great terms at the begining and I'll always remember him + the things he's taught me... but now, because of lack of communication, things might be awkward- and if there's one thing I hate, it's awkwardness. I'm sure I'll pull through and send him a nice card or something, cards are always liked...

It's unreal how life works, how one second it's so great, then the other, you look at things and they're falling to peices. We should all be so thankful for what we have, who we have surrounding us, the smaller things too... everything counts in this lifetime- it's way too god damn short.